What a wild ride this has been, since the beginning of October. I was looking back at my "Year in Review" thingy that has popped up on Facebook this week. We've done some amazing, exciting things.
Since my diagnosis in October, we've changed directions, and have been in limbo a bit, not knowing what direction we'd be headed. We've had a tentative plan, and that plan to get settled down is taking shape. We should be in our new house and settled within a week or two. We'll be ready to welcome Jordan and Abby and Jackson, and soon little baby Avery, to the area in the new year
And we have some answers.
The biopsy showed that my kidneys have decided to throw in the towel. Ka-put. They're done. So that means more changes. I'll get a more permanent dialysis port, called a fistula, inserted in my arm. This will mean no more tubes hanging from my collar bone, which will be good. Full showers!!
It also means, since I am in otherwise pretty good health, that I will go on a transplant list. There are a lot of hoops to jump through to get to the transplant stage, things I have to do to be ready. It's not a quick process, and there has to be a kidney available. Not a pretty thought, but a necessary one. And until then, I'll have a better port to receive dialysis, although it takes several weeks for the new port to heal and be ready to use.
It's a lot to take in. I've been emotional. I've done my crying. I'm ready to tackle this. I'll keep doing what I can do to stay healthy physically and mentally. I'll take all the thoughts and prayers and support I can get. I'll lean on Brad and my boy and all of my family and y'all when I need to.
It's not the answer I wanted, but it's out of my hands. Eyes forward, looking out the windshield, not the rear-view mirror.
Bring it on.
